You bring such a calm to the chaos in me

Sunday, March 25, 2007

invisible children

tonight i watched the whole invisible children documentary. i've seen little parts of it before but i've never actually sat down and watched the whole thing. and it was so heartbreaking. i wanted to get up right then and start raising money. and i just want to go hug those children. they are so precious. while the children being abducted and forced to kill anyone and everyone was totally disgusting and touched me deeply there was something else that touched me and will stay with me forever. despite all of the turmoil and grief going on around them, the children worship God everyday and give Him praise and have such a deep faith for Him. i really felt disgusting. i worry about boys and money for things that i really don't need and these young children, and everyone else in the villages, are struggling for their lives. i get angry with God when these pointless things don't go my way and these people praise Him everyday when their lives are in danger, extreme danger. how in the world can i be so selfish? and the woman who talked after we watched the movie tonight said that the people taught her more about her faith then she taught them. it is so amazing. i really wish that i could go to the displace me in orlando on april 28th, but that's the day before i go to guatemala and i need to prepare for that. but i bought a t-shirt tonight and i plan on buying a bracelet of a story of one of the children. i just can't get the images out of my mind. never has something made me more uncomfortable and made me want to do something. and i love it. i just want to love those children and seeing them starving in the displacement camps made me want to just give them food and love them and let them go back to their homes. ah. i love when things make my heart flutter!

just thought i'd share my little insight with you guys :)


Friday, March 16, 2007

come back to me spring break

Spring Break was nice and relaxing...everything it should be. I sat on the beach and just relaxed. I didn't have anything to do, no school work, no work, nothing. just me-time. I didn't really get to see all of the people I wanted to, mainly because pretty much EVERYONE has their spring break this week. Oh well.

I came back up to Tallahassee for a wedding and it was simply AMAZING! I've only been to a couple of weddings, but usually you don't know the bride and groom usually know one better than the other. But both the bride and groom I have gotten the chance to know and I LOVE THEM! They are so in love and it's assuring to me that all guys are not d-bags.

Getting back into school has been harder than I thought. But I'm getting there. ha. I had to write a paper on the death penalty which was really tough because we read 3 different opinions and watched Dead Man Walking. We had to explain why arguments were good and bad and why and the relationship and .... lots of stuff. Then we had to put our opinion in there. It just made me think for once. Hopefully my professor will like it too.

Thursdays are always a day to look forward to, I don't have class until 2 and after class I get to go to boys and girls club. I've never been so in love with children until I went there. They are just so cute and make me forget about whatever's stressing me out. The first time I went, about 5 kids just swarmed me and wanted me to sit with them and hold their hand. It reminded me of being in Nicaragua. I love that. I wish I could have that instinct to go up to everyone and not worry what they will think. GAH! Especially with God, I wish that I could just have that faith and run open arms and excited to whatever He wants me to do. It's real hard and slowly but surely I will get there. :)

I can't wait until summer...Guatemala and have fun at home with my loves...and work..boooooo.

Monday, February 05, 2007

More coldness..

Saturday night there were snow flurries in Tallahassee. That's WAY too cold for me! haha

I think I also came down with something, I've been coughing and sneezing alllllll day. But, other than being super cold and getting a cold, things have been alright. I signed a lease for an apartment next year and the place is called in Australia. Brent's probably jealous. The sign when you drive in has a picture of Australia and a kangaroo. How sweet is that! If there's any "hot aussie girls" Brent, I'll give them your number...haha. But what's even MORE awesome is the girls I'm living with! I can't even begin to explain how excited I am. There's a little drama regarding that but it SHOULD all blow over soon. Sometimes I feel like I'm in high school still...but whatev. I have a place to live next year and I'm happy about it and that's all that matters.

My grades are pretty good too...I got my first paper back in my Religious Ethics class which was due a week after classes started and I got a 95 on it. I was super excited because I was having some trouble writing it. And I had my first Bio test today and I got a 20/25 which isn't too bad but I can take it again Wednesday.

All in all, everythings going great, minus a few retarded things. Hopefully this Guatemala thing will work out. And hopefully next year I can lead a Bible study group. I'd be so excited.

I've made some of the most AMAZING friends here. But that doesn't mean I don't miss my SUPER AMAZING ones back home. More of you need to come visit. I'd come home some too, but my invisble car isn't working right now..haha.

Alright well I'm off to go watch some IM basketball games. Loveeee

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Cold Weather...NOT A FAN!

Sometimes I like cold weather. Sometimes it's a nice change from the long time I've spent living 10 minutes from the beach. But I think that if it's going to be below freezing outside, it should just snow! Friday morning I woke up at 8 like I normally do on Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays. I also checked the weather like I usually do and it was 23 degrees outside. So I laughed and went back to sleep until my next class. It also doesn't help that they jack the heat up to like 80 degrees whenever it's below 50 degrees outside. So I never want to dress for the cold. I know I'm just being a little wimpy Florida girl, but what do you expect. A couple days before Christmas I was sitting on the beach. I mean if it snowed here I'd understand the coldness. But daaaaaaang. lol

Anyway, school's good. Crap is going on and it's annoying and I hate feeling like some people around me are still in high school. College people....welcome to it!

Well I'm gunna go start on some homework...I have a lot of it. Loveeee

Thursday, January 11, 2007


So, I've been back in Tallahassee for almost a week now and I really do miss home, but I'm SO thankful for my close friends that I've made here. Being home showed me how important family is and how important close friends are, true friends. Most of my friends that I went to high school with have fallen into the typical college student phase where they go out and drink until they can't stand up anymore. I love them all to death but I just didn't want to hang out with them and do the things they did almost every night of Christmas break.

New Years Eve was probably my favorite night.... Andre got married! It was so awesome to see him again and to see him and Cathy. They're so stinkin cute and I'm so happy for them...anddd like I said in the entry before this I saw another cute married couple... Matt and Christie! I love them so much and they're my favorites. I wish that they would come back...not that I'm home but I mean, at least I'm in the same state! It was so fun that night, we took crazy pictures... haha...yess. anyway. Christmas was really nice too.

There's more pictures, but I'm too lazy to post them and I have to work on a paper...already! Gah. But I had a wonderful Christmas break and I love my family and friends. So much. But I'm glad to be back in Tallahassee. Much love!!!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

all i want for christmas is a real good tan!

christmas was really awesome this year. well, not really awesome, but still really good. it was weird without my grandpa there...REALLY weird. my grandma kind of cried before everyone got there. but, we're going to see mary poppins in new york!! that was our gift to her. and she's taking whoever wants to go. i'm so excited! she started crying again when she opened the gift. happy crying of course. she loves mary poppins. :) matt and christie are here too! i saw them at church on sunday and they're so cute and awesome! got my grades and i passed way more than i thought i would haha. i thought i got a D but definately got a C+. i was on the verge of failing. but i aced the last two tests. phew. my other classes i did well in. so no big. i can't wait till next semester, i'm looking forward to my classes. anyway. i'm exhausted. but i hope you all had a wonderful christmas!!

oh and fsu plays in the toliet bowl, i mean emerald bowl tomorrow. good thing i'm working so i can't watch. oh well, it leaves room for me to not be disappointed. haha. night!!

Monday, November 27, 2006

where did you go thanksgiving break?

so i thought that being home for a week would allow me to hang out with all of my friends. well somewhat...but everyone got home a day or two before i left to come back here. hmpf. oh well christmas break is a month long. but wait. i'm working! the mall closes at 9 though and that's early-ish.

anywho...the uf/fsu game wasn't a complete disaster. i thought we were gunna get killed. but no way...the number 4 team in the nation only beat us by a touch down. and there were some pretty funny signs. 2 of my favorites...tebow got and 890 on his SAT and tebow can't fix the leak. and they say there aren't smart kids at fsu. but 890?! for a school that is soooo much better academically than us, that's a load of crap. he probably wouldn't have gotten in here with that SAT score. typical football player. he's still cute, just misunderstood of what school to go to. and chris leak, while one of his bad days is still 10x better than drew, isn't all that he's cracked up to be. whatever though. next year year. (let's hope so)

it's getting to be crunch time for finals. i've spent the past 2 hours studying pre calculus. we have a test on wednesday and i need to get an A on that test. and dominate the final. i should do well. let's hope so. and my other finals shouldn't be too bad. they're just like another test, but weigh more. study study study!! and then a nice break. next semester is going to be a little packed, but it will all be interesting classes. not like icky math or anything.

well i'm off to hit the books some more before our mandatory hall meeting. sheesh. peace out loves!